DOG TIRED!

        
For I will satisfy the weary soul, and every languishing soul I will replenish.” ~ Jeremiah 31:25

It is my second week in school and I am just dog tired.  My feet ache, my legs ache, my back aches and my head feels like it weighs far too much for my neck.  However, I am more emotionally tired than physically tired.  I won't go "into" the issues I am having to figure out, but there are many.  It's the mental tiredness that just wears me to a frazzle.  It is funny that I blogged about God "calling" teachers into the profession and then satan uses that very thing to wear me down.  That's okay.  God has a plan and it will all work out.  In the meantime, I am praying for wisdom so that I can use my knowledge to come up with solutions.  I also went to CVS and stocked up on B100, B12, a STRONG multivitamin and calcium.  HA!  I am making myself go to bed earlier these days.  I have decided that if things are not done around the house by 8:00 then they will just have to wait until tomorrow.  I am reworking my afternoon schedule and trying a few new things to see if we can all get into bed earlier.  I have some classroom ideas to try too.  Some are throw-backs from days gone by but they just might be what this group needs.  We shall see.

On another note, when I was at Elizabeth's house the other day, I noticed hummingbirds around her empty feeders.  I decided to put my feeder on the front porch where I could sit on my sofa and watch them.  I was teasing Elizabeth and told her I stole her hummingbirds b/c I saw three of them dining the day after I put mine out.  However, she is a really good friend, so I made her some food for her feeders and took it over to her yesterday.  I called her a "tease" and told her to go feed her birds.  It really has been therapeutic to watch the feeder.  I think they are such beautiful birds and absolutely wonderfully made. 

 

 

On my way to work this morning, I was sharing with God how defeated I felt right now at work.  I just don't seem to have the answers for some of the "issues" am having to work through with some of my students.  I was eating my chicken mini (Don't you just love those things from Chick-fil-A?) and asking God to please give me the wisdom I needed.  I looked up and the van in front of me had a bumper sticker with big red letters that said "Trust Jesus."  Yes, I believe God speaks to us from the bumpers of a van in front of us if we will allow Him to.  Then as I was about half way to work, the song "Strangely Dim" by Francesca Battistelli played on WMHK my local CHRISTian radio station.  It isn't one of my favorite melodies but the words were truly meant for my ears before I was to walk into my classroom.  The words are below.  I hope they speak to someone reading this blog too. 

"Strangely Dim" By Francesca Battistelli

I've got all these plans piled up sky high
A thousand dreams on hold
And I don't know why,
I got a front row seat
To the longest wait
And I just can't see
Past the things I pray
Today
But when I fix my eyes on all that You are
Then every doubt I feel
Deep in my heart
Grows strangely dim
All my worries fade
And fall to the ground
Cause when I seek Your face
And don't look around
Any place I'm in
Grows strangely dim
Sometimes where I stand
On this narrow road
Is in a raging storm
Or a valley low
But oh

When I fix my eyes on all that You are
Then every doubt I feel
Deep in my heart
Grows strangely dim
All my worries fade
And fall to the ground
Cause when I seek Your face
And don't look around
Any place I'm in
Grows strangely dim
I don't know, I don't know
What tomorrow may hold
But I know, but I know
That You're holding it all
So no matter what may come

I'm gonna fix my eyes on all that You are
'Til every doubt I feel
Deep in my heart
Grows strangely dim
Let all my worries fade
And fall to the ground
I'm gonna seek Your face
And not look around
Til the place I'm in
Grows strangely, strangely, strangely dim.